Things I've had to learn to get closer to serenity:

Not to expect life to be "fair." If everything went the way that is "good" for everyone, life would be mundane. With destruction and loss comes construction and connection.

Not to expect that people to react a certain way. Without the random nature of humans, there would be no comedy.

Not to assume that people will harm me. Not to expect that people won't.

Don't take it personally. Everyone is the star of their own movie, and their opinions are usually a reflection of their selves, not others.

I can't excel at everything. It's ridiculous to expect myself to be a master of every thing I attempt. Skill comes with repetition, and everyone has their own natural talents.

The way to conquer a fear is to face the very thing that is scary. You won't magically move forward in life "once you overcome a debilitating fear." You move forward in life when you conquer that fear.

=Curiosity is the Key!=

Thanks again to the fabulous Ayria for introducing me to SuperBetter, which directed me to a great article that helped me realize that what I am missing to combat my anxiety is.. CURIOSITY!

I am continuously curious about things and ideas, but not strangers who I do not yet know. I fear unknown humans and have not been able to determine why. I feel their business is "none of my business" and I am scared that they will be mean or dangerous. These are faulty assumptions that I make and I need to stop that!

I also need to evict my harsh self-critic and just make things! I can bring a lot of fascinating things to the world, but I am always grinding up the seeds of ideas before they can even take root. Speaking of this, I have been tending to flowers to get myself to go outside. I planted the seeds and have been watering them and caring for them. This may sound simple, but I've never had a green thumb, so I'm pretty proud of myself. X3 Hey, small victories, people. :)

Zedis Lapedis! How is everyone?!

Today I realized that I need to *get excited* again! I have oodles of talent that's just waiting to gush out, but I keep allowing myself to be crippled with fear and self-doubt. Enough of that! *Squashes the spiky black urchiny meanie creature that perpetuates those feelings*

I have so many nifty-keen things to share with you. I'll show you the magical characters I've been evolving since I was a kid, videos that make me smile, clever DIY crafty things, and things that bring me awe. (Awesome!)

So, buckle up, Buttercup, and let's live with a grin!!!



P.S.: BWAH HAA HAA!! Poor Pikachu. XD http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0f4fitZHe1rn4r9jo1_400.jpg